0% Happy

I took an online "fun" quiz yesterday and was shocked at the results.  This was a quiz that one of my facebook friends took and she shared her result.  She got 50% happy.  The name of this quiz was, "How Happy Are You?"  I figured if she got 50% happy, I'd get at least in the upper 90s because I have so  many things to be happy about.  I answered all the questions as truthfully as possible and I was stunned that mine came back at 0% happy.  0.  0%.  Zero.  WTH?  How is that even possible?

It's just a fun thing that isn't by any means to be taken seriously, but I was still shocked by that.  I thought for sure I'd get in the upper percentile.  My friend has had a terrible year with breaking up with a long-term serious boyfriend and an injury that side-lined her passion for running.  That's some serious unhappiness right there.  She is openly grieving her break-up on facebook, and yeah, she's unhappy.  But she still got 50%!  I'm celebrating two big events this month and next month, and I get 0??  I'm graduating college with Honors and have a wedding anniversary milestone of 25 years, both things that people are happy about, but apparently, I'm not.

This got me to thinking about happiness in general.  I've always thought I was a happy person.  We all deal with crap in our lives, and serious crap that makes us unhappy.  I've certainly had my share, but I've always felt that I've dealt with it and moved on.  But I wonder if I have?  Apparently, the quiz thinks I haven't and that makes me wonder.  I don't even know where to start making myself happy because I really didn't think I was that unhappy.  What makes a person happy?

Making chain maille makes me happy, and that was one of the questions.  It asked if I had hobbies.  Yes!  Of course I do.  So why didn't I get some points for that?  Maybe it knew that my elbows are giving me problems and with the crapload of homework from school, I haven't been able to make much of anything this semester. I haven't made a quilt since going back to school, and I really miss that.  Nor have I scrapbooked anything, not to mention putting our vacations on hold until I'm out of school.  Hmmm, maybe I wouldn't have scored as high as I thought.  But I know that I will return to these hobbies once I don't have the pressing doom of homework deadlines crashing in on me.  I'll just give myself some points for that.  Yeah, who needs the stuupie test to tell me that...

0% happy.  I need to find the how unhappy test out there and see what I score on that.  I hate failing tests.  That makes me unhappy. I still cringe inwardly when I think of my Spanish oral exam that I failed.  That was three years ago!  I hate failing things.  That makes me unhappy.  But, this week, on May 7th, I will have corrected a huge failing in my life and will complete my Bachelor's degree.  I really think that should count for something.  I am happy about that, no matter what the stupid online test tells me.